Post by Atanamir on May 17, 2005 23:14:24 GMT -8
Yes, that's right, I'm writing a post because I'm bored. I want to just express my thoughts as they come, because I can't seem to think clearly anymore. I have so much traffic running through my little head, I feel the need to express some of the traffic into little words that no one here will find the least bit interesting.
People suck. I'm sort of having a conversation with a mini-me type person at my school, who is just starting to feel the way that I do. Why must people suck? Given the opportunity, people will screw you over. Every, single, time. People, generally speaking, want flux. They want drama, they want shit to hit the fan. But why? Why must people be such jerks? Perhaps it's inherent in our nature, perhaps we're all just greedy pigs that need to feast off of the harm and eventual destruction of others?
Probably. I'm what, seventeen and I already see it? In my few years of experience, I already hate people, and detest life. I doubt I have some sort of realistic psychological dissorder, and I doubt I belong in a mental institution. I've arrived at my conclusions not through moping, but through what I like to think of as logic. Is this what life has to offer? In a world that glamorizes fame and beauty, I am left with mysery, despair, and masturbation? Is this what I live for, to continually be dissapointed in my fellow mankind, and to ejaculate to keep my small little mind from being totally consumed with thinking about sex every few days? I eat, I attempt to sleep, I work. Is this what life has to offer? Please, some of you 'grown ups', tell me differently. Give me somthing to strive for. I don't want some fantisful thing like a great life, I want somthing other than this.
*modified* Yes, I'm modifying this to attempt to show that none of this is directed towards any one of you. I'm ranting, but I don't believe that you (speaking to all of you) fall into this category. Please do not take any of this personally. I'm just a whining kid.
People suck. I'm sort of having a conversation with a mini-me type person at my school, who is just starting to feel the way that I do. Why must people suck? Given the opportunity, people will screw you over. Every, single, time. People, generally speaking, want flux. They want drama, they want shit to hit the fan. But why? Why must people be such jerks? Perhaps it's inherent in our nature, perhaps we're all just greedy pigs that need to feast off of the harm and eventual destruction of others?
Probably. I'm what, seventeen and I already see it? In my few years of experience, I already hate people, and detest life. I doubt I have some sort of realistic psychological dissorder, and I doubt I belong in a mental institution. I've arrived at my conclusions not through moping, but through what I like to think of as logic. Is this what life has to offer? In a world that glamorizes fame and beauty, I am left with mysery, despair, and masturbation? Is this what I live for, to continually be dissapointed in my fellow mankind, and to ejaculate to keep my small little mind from being totally consumed with thinking about sex every few days? I eat, I attempt to sleep, I work. Is this what life has to offer? Please, some of you 'grown ups', tell me differently. Give me somthing to strive for. I don't want some fantisful thing like a great life, I want somthing other than this.
*modified* Yes, I'm modifying this to attempt to show that none of this is directed towards any one of you. I'm ranting, but I don't believe that you (speaking to all of you) fall into this category. Please do not take any of this personally. I'm just a whining kid.